A Moment of Weakness

My apologies, my dear, but I am weak.

It taunts me, you see. It says "You do not have me yet, and you may never have me."

And I think, "But I have so much else."

It still persists, "But you do not have ME."

And I think, "But I do not want you." But I am only lying to myself. I am only passing deceit to my synapses in an attempt to stave off this terrible craving for more. To have some semblance of control on my impulses. Some... peace. But it never comes for men like me, you see. And every new disadvantage brings more turmoil and struggle and it makes it so impossible to just wait and let what may happen, happen.

I'm a man of action. I've never been the type to stand idle and try to let life happen to me. I hope you understand now, why I have to buy a Playstation 3.